I want to thank everyone for all there sugestions and advice. Y'all are so nice to have taken the time to listen to my rambling.
I went to my doc. office and saw the nurse to day. They have changed my diagnosis from MDD to bipolar but are concidering disthemia ( i hope that i spelled that correctly) with A/P.
The nurse managed to get me an appointment sooner than the one i had. Next Friday! and i can discuss an alternative treatment sa. diff med or adding another...whatever he recomends.
I am very proud of myself, i actually went to my son's baseball game tonight ! (they won by the way) It was difficult but i did it. I spent the whole time in my car just watching from a distance away from everyone but it was the only way i could keep from havin another panic attack.
THANKS AGAIN EVERYONE!!!!