Posted 6/14/2006 12:53 AM (GMT -6)
okay sorry it may be long but i have alot that im going through and im not quite sure how to deal with everything.
first off im only 17 i was kicked out of my house by my only parent (mom)when i was 16 because i stopped giving her all my pay checks (she wasent working and i had a 5.50 an hour job). So that was a major part of my life and it has just gotten worse. I became very depressed and didnt want to talk to anyone about it, my friend told me about youth on their own program and they were very much helpfull and i dont know what i would of done without them but thats besides the point.
I currently reside with my sister whose 23 and her husband and 3 year old nephew. I love them all and i dont know what i would of done with out them.
So every day seems like a new struggle, i cant seem to get away from all the drama my life possesses.
after my mom kicked me out she came to live with us because my sister couldnt stand to see her on the street because she got kicked out of her apartment. that went on for about 2 months and i came to honestly dislike my mom for all what she did to me. I stoped respecting her and didnt want to be around her whatsoever.
she moved got a job and an apartment and kept telling me to move back in with her (it was only a 1 bedroom aprtment in like crack vill). So i declined becuase it was best for me. I went through the school year and got a 4.0 because i want to do better for myself and get scholorships and everything so i dont become my mom.
she lost her job and stays at one of my sisters friends house. Well my sisters friends mom is going to kick My mom out becuase she isnt really looking for a job, and leaves all the time (prolly to go do drugs) so she calls today and is like i need all my stuff (i have her digital camera) and i ask her why and she says because she is going to move out of state and when i ask where shes going she tells me it doesnt matter and all this and that. So i hang up on her becuase shes being rediculas and now i just am wondering what i did to deserve all the drama and hate she has made me have.
I dont understand how parents can just kick kids out at an early age and not give a darn about them.
i feel so worthless to her and i dunno what to go now or where to go from here
i just she would care for me and be proud of the things that i can acomplish, but it just seems that im not on her list of cares, which make me very upset and sad.
Please if you could help me i dont know where to go from here or what i should do to pull myslef through this.