I have suffered from clinical depression for 3 and a half years. I was diagnosed about
2 years ago. I felt really ill a short while later, cold, shaky, weak, very tired and sick. My brother called an ambulance and my parents found out. I was released from hospital at about
6am after monitoring. One of the doctors asked me about
s-h so my parents found out about
that too. I wasn't planning on really hurting myself - I just wanted to stop feeling so angry and to feel normal again. I slept through the rest of monday, and woke up in the evening - about
5pm. My parents kept checking on me throughout the evening until we all went to bed about
9:30. Most of today they seem to have been pretending that it never happened.
I've been feeling a bit better and I haven't had any mood swings (apart from being tearful) but I'm worried about
my parents and my brother as we've all had a very difficult time over the past four years. I didn't tell them how bad I was feeling because I didn't want to worry them, but now I think I've just made it worse. I'm not sure what to do to make it easier for us all. My older brother also suffered from depression, as did my younger brother. My dad was also very depressed for a time (my depression started at around the same time). My mum just holds everything in so I don't know how she's feeling. I'm especially worried about
my brother because he's been depressed before and I don't want him to do it again, or reach the stage that I'm at.
Can anyone give me any advice on how to deal with all of this, and how can I say sorry to my family for hurting them? [img]/community/emoticons/sad.gif[/img]
Hi honehe, I'm sorry but I had to edit part of your post due to forum rules and guidelines #1 of no discussion of self-injury or suicide intended or not. There are many teens that post on this forum and we wouldn't want them to become influenced by something that we posted that was graphic in nature. Please do understand..Thank you. Elisha
Post Edited (Honehe) : 6/20/2006 4:47:46 PM (GMT-6)