LONDONSCOT- Welcome to the website. There is no easy way around it-grieving sucks. I always like to think of it this way It is easier to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Your ex may not be your ex in the future the person may come back to you. The time apart will make the person see that they need you and miss you. I don't know the whole story-maybe it is a good thing that you broke up.
I lost my father when I was 23. He had his 3rd stroke and it was induced by an asthma attack. He meant the world to me. He showed me what love is and was an excellent father. Losing him could have been even worse if he was an estranged Dad that only showed up a few times a year to visit. Then I would be wondering what he was like, if he loved me, why our parents split up etc.. But he was with our family he loved my mother they were the perfect couple and I had a great upbringing. He died knowing how I felt about him. My Mom needed me to be strong and help her with the funeral arrangements. Yes I cried I cried for days but only when I was alone or with my brothers. Never around my Mom. When it came time for the viewing and burial I was a complete wreck. We did talk about my Dad and we still do to this day. I think that helps a lot. It's been 12 years now and not until just last year was I able to tell a friend about my dad without crying. The hard times for me every year were his birthday because I walk the aisles of Hallmark looking through the cards and seeing which one I'd choose for him. Father's day of course, and the day he died. I go to his gravesite when I am home and always bring him a pinwheel. Thanks for letting me share my story with you. I hope in some small way it helps you find comfort.
It doesn't happen overnight and you never really get over the loss. But it should get easier with time. I wish you well. I can't tell you how it touched my heart to hear a grown man tell his grief over the loss of his mother. In this day and age men act as if they can't show their emotions as if it is a sign of weakness. I find that it shows strength compassion and a true example of unconditional love. What you and your mother had was special, be thankful for your wonderful relationship. It will only make you a better friend, lover, brother,father,person to have in this world. The love we are shown from our parent(s) is one of the cornerstones as to how we love another. Peace to you, krocks