Hi ya Sadsong! It is funny that you wrote as I was just thinking about you and wondering if you were doing okay. I have missed seeing you on the forum and have come to think of you as a friend.
I think I understand how you feel. I have pretty much stopped talking to all my other friends except for one, and sometimes I don't even answer my phone when she calls. It almost seems as if I don't have much in common with others or maybe its just me projecting my feelings onto them, who knows. But, I don't open up either and talk to people and if someone does go out of their way to start a conversation with me I am always at a loss for words...like it is forced and fake. Then I have to worry that they can tell and mistake it for being snotty or thinking I'm better than them. Really it is almost too much energy to spend and waste.
I don't know what the solution or answer is. Maybe it is within ourselves and once we heal and work on get to being better with us than it will be easier. I hope.
Please do check in with us when you can, you will always be able to find support and encouragement here (as you well know). You can also e-mail me if you want to, my address is below my username.