Tell your mom. Believe me, you can't hide it indefinitely anyhow...been there, done tried that! UGH! Although she's proud about
how well you'd been doing, it doesn't mean that because you've had a setback that she'll be "ashamed" of you now. Anxiety/depression isn't like an addiction that you can kick and then you "fall off the wagon" by having a binge. And even if it was the same, either way, the important thing is that you're doing your best as it is an ongoing struggle. Hopefully your mom is aware of that. Of course she'll be disappointed for you, but she won't be disappointed in YOU. There's a BIG difference! I am sorry that your bf isn't more supportive. He needs to get educated about
this. If so, I'd hope that he'd be more encouraging and less remote. Partners are supposed to be there for each other in good times and bad. That's part of what love is all about
! Perhaps you could tell him that you don't expect him to UNDERSTAND, but you would appreciate him being more UNDERSTANDING. This is another case where there's a BIG difference between the two!
No matter what tomorrow brings, always remember that it WILL get better again. I'm speaking from personal experience! So hang in there and keep on posting! We do care! :)
"If you watch the stars at night,
And you find them shining equally bright,
You might've seen Jesus
And not have known what you saw...
But you would notice a gem
In a five & dime store."
From-"Mary Was An Only Child" by Art Garfunkel