May I just say "God Bless".
All of you have been so kind to me and I'm so greatful for all your concerns. It's so nice to know that even though we are all strangers here, you are all willing to help someone and anyone in need. And your help IS so helpful. Ive gotten clarity and hope on my situation thanks to you all. It was comforting just to know that someone listened and cared. Thank you again. I've made a decision to get some professional help.