Posted 7/25/2006 2:04 PM (GMT -8)
Hi Victoria and Counterclosewise -
Thank you both for responding. It always makes me feel better just to know that there is at least one other person in this big huge world that is willing to listen to me and understands what I'm going through. Your support, advice, and encouragement is greatly appreciated! :)
I do sometimes try to make plans, but for some reason whenever I get home I get depressed. I start telling myself that yeah that sounded like a good idea, but I really don't want to do that. When that starts to happen I end up doing nothing, but stay in and read books or watch movies. It's not much of a life.
For example, tonight, I was going to start taking dance lessons, but when I got home I started to second guess myself and decided to stay home instead. My rational, as irrational as it may be, was due to the fact that I may not have fun. That may or may not be the case, but I'm not even willing to take that risk anymore and this is coming from someone who once threw all of her belongs into storage and drove across the country for two and a half months. It seems as thought that spirted and independant woman has been lost and I really want to find her again.