Hi all -
Perhaps I should have started a new thread... This was the first one of mine that I came across, so I thought I'd post how my vacation was going. I'm back home now.
After an 11 hour flight (one 45 minute lay over in TX) I arrived safely back to the east coast! The trip was exactly what I needed to unwind and destress! Sure, the first few days were rough (I was very anxious and worried, but once I settled in and figured out how to use the bus system and met up with some of my friends who live in the area I became much more relaxed.) I even started to listen to my needs and act without analyzing every decision before I made it.
It was really great to be able to connect with other people and just listen to their stories and share my own!
As far as my job is concerned, I love my job. It's my dream job. It's exactly what I've wanted to do since I fell into grad school. I love the people (most of the time). I love the benefits and I love what I do. The folks I work with are the most caring and understanding and suportive people that I have ever worked for before. (And I've had A LOT of jobs before in a whole range of disciplines.) It just that one of my bosses (I have two, since I work half time for two separtate programs) can get very anal and controlling. We've talked and she completely acknowledges that she can be very controlling. She apologized for interupting me at out last meeting.
I feel as though I was always walked away from confrontation whenever I feel uncomfortable and it's time for me to start speaking up for myself and being more assertive. It's just that since I've been such a push over for so long, it seems like it will take quite a bit of effort on my part to show others that I do not want to just roll over and do whatever I am told to do, but instead have more of a give and take relationship that is more respectful of my needs and more balanced.