I took a shower and it was refreshing. I am going to overdraw my checking account so I can get to my ex's parents house to see my daughter. Her smile is like a ray of sunshine and I need to see it and I need a hug from her. I don't know if she knows how much I love her and how much I depend on her. Sometimes I think I depend on both of my children more than they depend on me. They depend on me to take care of them, but I depend on them to keep my bearings in life.
Thanks for listening Al. I hope your wife soon feels better. I know it must be a comfort for her to have you there in her corner to support and love her.
I live in Michigan. My Dad is a pastor. I do not attend church regularly. I haven't found one that I like, and I stopped looking long ago. I feel like no matter what church I walk into, that the pastor is broadcasting a political agenda, and if my ideals do not match, then I am wrong and not welcome. Needless to say, I have not felt God's presence in a very long time. I wonder sometimes if he is there, or if he has just given up on me.
My Dad being a pastor is the primary reason why I do not talk to my family about how I feel. My Mom thinks that church is the cure for all that ails you.
My ex's Mom is the administrative nurse at a state psychiatric hospital. I am hoping she will be there today, because I want to reach out to her for help.