Hi AngMichelle, I wish things were better for you.. I know first hand how difficult it is to balance school when you have multiple health problems. The only thing I can say to that is that perhaps you can wait on school for a bit until you get to feeling better. School will always be there, and you can always begin again when you’re feeling more stable. Physically and mentally. It is very easy to get depressed and overwhelmed when your dealing with extreme physical health issues. Sometimes this even happens without notice or without you even realizing it…before it is way to much to handle. I was much like that last August before I went into the hospital with heart problems and passing out issues. I was very depressed, crying all the time, and had constant thoughts of hurting myself. I didn’t see the signs of it coming on before it was too late and my antidepressant I was on at the time just basically wasn’t keeping up with what was happening in my body.
As for the medical bills, trust me it is something we all have and will have forever. You’re very lucky you have your parents to help you through this. Yes, it is very stressful and hard not to worry about the bills, but they are a necessary evil in life. It just comes down to how you manage them. Instead try to concentrate on getting physically better, day-by-day. Then hopefully once you do your mental state will improve some also. Keep posting, it is therapeutic to get these feelings out and have a support system with people who understand. We are always here for you. TC