I am feeling very blue today. I woke this morning from a dream that included one of my late husbands, it was so real. My body was excruciating with pain(FMS), I feel maybe I was so tensed up in dream. Who knows? I feel like I have to hold back tears in front of my newest Angel(new hubby), afraid of hurting his feelings, like he's less of my last hubby or something. That's the furthest from the truth. He is just that "My newest Angel". It has been 10 yrs this month since my last loss and 20 yrs this yr from loss of my first hubby. Loss my Mom in between. aaaaaaggggggghhhhhh.........I am on Cymbalta, Wellbutrin SR, Trazadone, Lunesta for depression. I cry almost daily recently either missing my late loved ones or feeling guilty about
not being able to work and all I do is create medical bills. I hate that I can't work daily. Hubby just says we will be ok. But I know that we are sinking into a black hole called debt. Please tell me what anyone of you know about
grieving. Today I feel like I am loosing it, I have a Psych appt. on the 15th. I know I can count on my friends here for some sharing. Please send prayers this way.