I loved how you worded that 'I write my own stories of Doom and Gloom.' I could never think of the words to describe what I do, and here you have done it for me. This was a huge problem for me when I was younger. As long as you are honest with yourself and your counsellor, your already ahead.
Congratulations for getting off the alcohol!!!!!!!!
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