Hi ya Shy, I saw a video very similar to the one you have described when I was taking a sociology course me 2nd yr in college. It related mostly to dependance with drinking and drugs and the effects of that. The odd thing for me was I related to it in many ways, I was the little party girl back then and drank quite a bit. The thing I could do when I was drinking was be intimate with my boyfriend. Sober I couldnt connect with it. So it was quite the eye opener for me to the say the least.
I dont know if you have been able to get insurance at work or not and know that your finances are stretched to the limit.... but perhaps you could consider some counseling to help deal with some of these issues. Whatever you do were here for you....hugs