Posted 8/21/2006 3:28 PM (GMT -6)
Ha! I remember when i said that. Fate/Life is so eager to show you how wrong you are...
I just narrowly avoided being homeless, but that's only 'cause i won't live on the street. I've lived in a car, and if i had one i'd do it again; but i refuse to live on the street, if i'm homeless i'm jumping. And God will not let me die -i have no idea why not, but He doesn't.
No hope, no future, no family, no friends; more aches and sorrows than any one person should ever bear.
So, i'm in the one place i could afford. A small town called Tonopah. They don't deliver the mail here, everyone in town has to get a p.o. box and pick up their mail at the post office.
My body doesn't deal well with heat and overheats too easily, i get ill i get migraines, i'm a CA beach kid and i'm in the frelling desert. An hour away from area 51, even closer to the official nuclear bomb test site -60 years of bomb tests, great. 1 grocery store, 0 book stores, i asked someone if there was a bike shop here and he started laughing. Bike's got a flat, can't get an inner tube. The water is cloudy and no one knows why but everyone is scared of it. Yah filter the water but i don't know of any filters that can take out radiation. In fact a guy at this "complex" (cleverly disguised as a beat-up junkyard) died from radiation. I was regaled with that tale my 2nd day here. I should talk to the manager, "your ad didn't say anything about radiation (or cloudy water), i want a discount".
The ad was a total lie, i had no idea what i was getting into 'cause i was led to believe something different. Bait and switch. That trick works so well. Gravel. Broken glass. Rotting car husks. Heavy drug use among the locals. Comparatively, i was better off when i lived in a car, hmm interesting. And i'm going to lose my mind from the frelling heat!!!
I'm like a person 'cocconed' in an Aliens movie, "kill me, kill me." (lol, now my mind's wandering and i was actualy contemplating which is worse and if i'd trade places with that person -at least that's quick)
"Everyone wants to be me",