I'm usually on the Crohn's forum, but I also have depression, and have never come over here, I don't know why. I'm on anti depressants. This week has been a real doosie though. I just can't seem to get out of this misery. I'm on Prednisone for the Crohn's, and have gained about 20 pounds in the last month, and I'm one of the Crohn's patients that doesn't need to gain weight. I'm very, very depressed about that. I just feel like crap all the time....so very sick of it all. I just want to be "normal", whatever that is. Not sick, not in pain, not depressed, or upset.
My kids are all grown and gone, but they are going through tough times too, and of course I worry about them. I have that caretaker personality. I have a son in Afghanistan now who is going through a divorce. She told him after he was over there, and she is being really really nasty. I can't believe how people can change. And he has a 2 year old daughter, my grandaugter, that he was allowed to see for 2 days when he was on his R & R, because he's just trying to do the right thing, he only had 2 weeks here in the states and didn't want to start anything right now. Its so hard to see your kids suffer. He's the one I'm worried about most right now, but the others are going through some hard times too. And I have another son who is in Iraq right now, he's due to come home in Nov. Boy I can't wait for that. Even then when he calls me, its an effort to be excited, I just don't want to talk to anyone anymore. When friends call, I usually tell them I don't feel well, or I'm busy, and i'll call back, but I don't.
Sorry about all that, I guess I just needed to vent a little. No one needs to reply, I just needed to get that out of my system maybe.
Just so tired and miserable, and depressed.