I would like to hear from people who have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state.
I think it would be a great help for those who are still experiencing depression.
I know that some people have a type of "bright light" type of spiritual experience that changes thier life. Others have the educational type.
For me it was both. I was in love with a beautiful wife, married for 17 years. Had a thriving business. owned a house, two new cars, and still have two wonderful boys. I dont' know why I got depressed. I began to drink more and more. My wife divorced me and I really got depressed. I drank to the point of self destruction. Ended up in court, foreclosure of the house, legal problems, lost custody, Business went bankrupt, Developed liver disease and pancreatis. was in drug and alchohol treatment 5 times, three times in the psych ward tied down for suicide, funny I didn't think I was trying it at the time. Kicked out of hospitals, homeless for over a year, lost my belongings at a homeless helter, that's all I had, then got kicked out, Ended up in the hospital for the last time. I saw demon's, alcohol can do this. I cried out for God and got no answer. It was over. I gave up then passed out. The next day I was comepletely changed. God had slipped right in!!!
I haven't had a drink since that day on Jan 21, 2004. I continue to learn about spirituality and do believe support and sometimes medicine is vital. I now believe in miracles and those who are suffering will become one.
Thank you for posting that. Nothing seems to make me happy anymore. Ive gotten really good at pertending to be happy so I dont drag the ppl around me down. But some days I cant pretend. Like today. I feel completely alone, hopeless, and just plain frustrated w my life. I dont think Im the type of person ppl can loved. No one really cares about me. Im in so much pain. Ive tried church and therapists (when I could afford one). I have a hard time thinking that I can be happy with myself and my life. To the point where I think about ways to end it. I never have the guts to actually do anything to myself but I think about it a lot. Looking at what you went thru and how you came around. That gives me a tiny bit of hope.