i agree with you friend...i dont want anymore demands on me to do anything anymore, its like i am burned out on everything and everyone after being alive for 50 yrs i seen it all and done nearly it all ( i have nt been to jail or anything like) that though my problem lies from my nutso family i had to deal with my whole life and the pattern of abusive relationships i got myself into as a reuslt of being too ignorant to make good choices....i dont mind living alone b/c i do what i want when i want to frankly i think the rest of the world is nuts between the fighting going on in the world ( thou shall not kill rightexcept when its your foe at war)i know how you feel. i ahve decieded the 'friends' i was with were burning me out with their problems also and had to cut them loose for a while, i think i have problems relating to people in general b/c of whati been through, its like going through a war then coming home, peeps dont know what you been through and what its like ..in my case i got taken advantage of a doctor who did a needless operation on me my neck and put inthe wrong sized metal plates and now they have to come out and i almost died from the operation in the first place and i dont want to do it again as there is no guranatee ti will be any better and i am tiredof taking chances on bad docs again so i am a pain med person now and a xanax person now i have trust issues now with docs and laywers etc. it is too long to go into read some of my posts if you want to know waht i been through... good luck
Hi every one, I have suffered for so long and am at a low right now, although i must admit that i have been inspired and a tad cheered by the forum.
my name letmebe is simply as i feel ..... i can hear me now saying to my family, just leave me and ille be fine, friends have been pushed away because i can not be bothered. depression is so selfish and all we think about is ourselves.. but not on here. that amazes me .
This has been bugging me for a while. I have never contemplated suicide, I can not go there. WHAT I WANT(think i want) is to get away from me. just to be left alone, not to be asked anything, not to have to consider another being ..... does this make any sence? ring any bells ?
Why is it that suicide is considered to be the ultimate symptom of depression? any answers?
9-02 crash w/ C-5-6-7 anterior/posterior fusion in neck w/11 screws and 4 metal plates. multilevel HNP at T & L section. FMS, PA in dec 05. on SSDI after 2.5 yr wait. sezuires, CTS, IBS ( C & D). norco, xanax, predisone shots. i dont know what else is wrong with me and neither does anyone else!!!