Hi Thozzy, Let me welcome you to Healing Well first, we are happy to have you join us here.
I can’t speak for the "pro-health" boards as I haven’t been a member and have never visited one before but we here do only want you to be your self. I don’t want you to have to feel you have to pretend or fake feelings you don’t have as that only worsens depression and is really counterproductive in my opinion. I do hope that you have read over our list of forum rules and become familiar with them so you do know what not to post and the boundaries that we must adhere to for the safety of everyone and the forum. Also, us moderators are here to help in anyway we can so if there is something your unsure of please feel free to e-mail one of us.
There was something that you wrote that struck me though and that was that you stated that the boards were your "life line" and "when you cry for help you get rejected". I just wanted to say that we are here for support of each other and to share our experiences but this is only a very small piece to getting better and getting help with depression. I wouldn’t want anyone to come to depend solely on the forum for management of their depression. If you’re having periods in your life where you are crying all the time, don’t want to get out of bed, having thoughts of self harm, and just don’t see the point any positive aspects in your life than you really need to see a medical professional. Preferably a mental health professional such as a psychiatrist or therapist but since these are expensive some people do opt to see their primary doctor which is fine. Please do consider this.
You are very much welcome here and we are looking forward to hearing more from you. Take care