Not sure if this is just me, but before I go into a depression the first sign I get is that I imagine cutting myself. I sometimes feel like I am doing it to myself but most of the time it is just being done to me and Im not aware of who is doing it. I cant seem to stop these thoughts, they just come and they disturb me so much...theyre also not the type of thing I can discuss with friends. I dont self mutilate and so i dont know where they come from or how to deal with them. Before I go into a depression they usually start and then as I get beter they just dissapear one day. I dont do anything, they just come and go and I dont seem to have any control over them.
If anybody has experienced anything like this, please let me know, especially if you have found a way of preventing the thoughts or dealing with them when they arrive. I dont know of anybody else who gets these feelings and realy feel alone when I deal with them because I cant talk about them and dont think anybody will understand.
Blue, I am sorry but I have had to edit your post due to forum rule #1 no discussion of self-injury. Your post was very graphic, please do keep in mind that teens and sometimes children post here and we dont want something we post to influence them in anyway. Thank you ~ Elisha
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 9/1/2006 5:36:00 AM (GMT-6)