Hi, Ang -- sorry you are having such a tough time right now.
Couple of questions:
Tell us about your physical illness, are you receiving appropriate treatment? When we are overwhelmed with the physical, it's hard to acknowledge much good in our lives.
Is there AnyThing you look forward to, no matter how unlikely it seems at the moment? I'm sure you expected life to be different at your age, but here you are ... and we are right here to listen and support whenever you need us.
Is there one tiny little thing you can do today to make your life nicer, just for today? For me, it'd be a double chocolate! milkshake, without my diabetis doc wagging his finger at me or my daughter telling me I couldn't have it. I know that's not gonna happen, but a glass of skim milk with sugar free chocolate syrup is a real possibility. Now... I just gotta get up and make that something good for myself.
Look forward to hearing back from you ...