Welcome to HW!
Well now, I spent most of the summers of my early teens hiding in a cupboard -- and when I grew too big to fit in that, I spent much of it hiding in my room or the local woods. Rural places are great for finding places to hide, so if that's what you want to do for a while, do it outside in the fresh air and pick up some of that sun (which will help make you feel better!). I wasn't a great one for company -- didn't feel that was a bad thing either! I actually didn't mind those times at all -- had a whole world of my own and it was *fun* to run about in a wood. Ok, so the cupboard and room hiding wasn't all that productive, and it's hard to *really* hide in your parents' house! I was always a bit of a loner at school too -- always liked doing the work more than hanging out with others (what was *that* about??!). I don't think it was wrong for me -- it's who I was -- and to some extent who I still am, it's just that it's easier to be yourself and do things the way you like, and find your own space when you're an adult away from parents and school. That said, I don't get to run around hiding in woods as much these days ... and I wish I did!! So try to enjoy these years for what *you* like to do, not what others *expect* you to do. Mostly people don't notice anyway -- they're too busy worrying about whether or not *they're* doing things right!!
Take care hun,
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