hi welcome to the board and you are not alone here.....
I too, have a M. S. Ed. in special education and worked with families of abused children from pre-k - 12th grade on a multilevel/multiage basis. I have done the IEP's and etc paperwork until it was coming out of my ears for years. A car wreck stopped me and left me with chronic pain from botched operations. maybe were it not for that i would still be wroking in the industry b/c i loved my job and thought I was doing some good at least b/c i knew gfrom my own crazy upbringing that it was something good i could do in my life.
You know, i cant spell so most of my postings are full of spelling errors.
I can understand your feelings. I have a very dysfunctional family and a half sister who does not talk to me ( in other posts of mine if you want to know why) who is also a social worker, but frankly i couldnt understand why she went in to that profession b/c to my mind you ahve to have some kind of compassion towards your fellow man which she did not.
anyways, you are not alone.....i too, will be on meds for the rest of my life ( aged 50 now) and it is not something I am happy about.
my depression stems from early upbringing sexual abuse and neglect/etc from s highly dysfunctional family. after I kinda sorta got over that i had a bad crash which left me victimzied by med doctors who performed a needless operation on my neck to churn me for my insurance card.
so there you have it in a nutshell. once i was 'helpable' by going back to school and getting my MS Ed and worked, now i can no longer work and am trying to deal with this.
I try to sell stuff on ebay, am agorphobic many days ( due to the reality if i get into one more crash the docs pretty much told me I will be paralized as i have too much wrong with me there already) and have a hard time relating to people anyways after waht i have seen.
take care, and welcome
9-02 crash w/ C-5-6-7 anterior/posterior fusion in neck w/11 screws and 4 metal plates. multilevel HNP at T & L section. FMS, PA in dec 05. on SSDI after 2.5 yr wait. sezuires, CTS, IBS ( C & D). norco, xanax, predisone shots. i dont know what else is wrong with me and neither does anyone else!!!