Posted 9/9/2006 6:21 PM (GMT -6)
oh and by theway ---
i too, had been in a psy ward for a week also back in 2000, feb when i tried to take too many pills so as not to wake up from my life b/c i had enough with it all, when my ex called the police on me after i sounded funny over the phone and he knew something was up with me and called 911, they came and got me and put me in the ambulance and wanetd to pump my stomach.
i agreed to voluntary stay for a few days which turned into a week. and attended all the meeting and some silly groups, some good, some meaningless art groups, so that i could some how reconnect again with the world.
i saw lots of dysfunctional people from there who for one reason or another from all walks of life, wanted to quit life. wondering why on my part everyone in there wanted to do the same thing i wanted to do, why was everyone there so disenfranchiesed with the world/themselves as it is?
good question, i still dont know exactly why myself what my expectations are /were also, and doubt if i will ever know, all i know is that i do not fit in and am different.
if i were ever to try to leave this world again, i will not be interrupted next time. you are not alone, i figured it this way, a heck of alot of people just flat out do not care who work within the psy community maybe they are burned out, or seen to much dispair.
this applies to shrinks also, i can tell you from my own account that my brother who is 3 yrs older than myself, became a clinical psy in chicago some 15 yrs ago but for commiting sexual abuse on more than one female, lost his liscense for up to 4 yrs from 1999-2004 for the infractions.
so therefore, not only b/c of him, but b/c of other shrinks i have come to know, they are one type of VERY dysfunctional set of group of people in their own rights, so if you are going to ask them waht is wrong with you, and they respond with hummmm why do you think this way about yourself it is simply b/c they themselves do not know waht is wrong with themselves to begin with so dont feel badly about it. i found more correct info from self help books and -group support from lay people than ever with professionals
EVER. so maybe this can give you some understanding of how thing are the way they are....
9-02 crash w/ C-5-6-7 anterior/posterior fusion in neck w/11 screws and 4 metal plates. multilevel HNP at T & L section. FMS, PA in dec 05. on SSDI after 2.5 yr wait. sezuires, CTS, IBS ( C & D). norco, xanax, predisone shots. i dont know what else is wrong with me and neither does anyone else!!!