Oh Yaa!! I have a subject now!!! Thanx counterclockwise
By noon yesterday I started feeling a bit better, not euphoric but better. I still didn't manage to accomplish much. Today is a new day and I feel o.k this morning.
O.K O.K O.K I need to see a Dr. this we have established. wich one of you wants to hold my hand through it, or drag me there. I remember dragging my Mother to the Dr. Maybe I can deal better with it because I learned from her experiance. I'm real afraid of not being able to handle it. Well ya know I'm real afraid of not doing it either. If I were the one giving the advice and not getting it I would say...The first thing to do is make a phone call to your insurace company. I guess I can do that, but just that. for now.
Did any of you really understand what I wrote yesterday, this morning I read it and I hardly understood.
about the euphoria! OH WEE I LOVE IT!!! Ambitious, radiant, energetic, smile, beeming with joy and positivity!!! BUT I've learned that it doesn't last and sometimes the anxiety of crashing ruins how much I enjoy it. I exhaust myself thinking I better get as much done as I can to get me through the low. The lows seem longer now. It destroys almost all of my relationships. People just don't know what to think of me. I remember living with my Mother and hate that I make the people in my life feel the way she made me feel.
I was afraid that I wouldn't find any replies this moring...almost didn't look...but just had to. Thank you so much for being there. Thank you so so so much. I live in a house alone so it's real easy for me to shut the world out. That can be dangerous. All of my family is on the other side of the country and I don't have much contact with them, especially about this. My one friend has children and two jobs I don't see her often. My boyfriend is wonderful, he met me euphoric fell in love with euphoric...said he wouldn't leave sad...but wants me to feel better.
counterclockwise being my age and a Veteran Member I wonder about some of those not so general personal things that shouldn't be posted here Rosie x you must be a woman, if you have the time will you e-mail...I'de like to know more about how you deal with this. Only problem is my e-mail has my name and I really don't want to put it out there. I'll have to create a new mailbox and post the address.