Like many of the posts I have read..I feel the very same way when it comes to weekends. When Friday comes, I always think.."hey..weekends almost here" and then when the weekend gets here..I am busy grocery shopping, doing laundry, spending time with my cats, cleaning litter box, catching up on e-mails, reading, bills, running errands..that before I know it..the weekend is over. I go to work on Monday and all my co-workers had plans with their family or friends such as amusement parks, and other fun things and I did nothing fun or entertaining.
I feel lonely on Saturday nights and Sundays. I live alone with my two cats. Most of my friends have moved away and have no boyfriend..not sure when the last time it was since I was on a date. I am currently on Remeron for depression..but yet, I feel no joy in life..just going through the motions. I don't feel excited about anything..feel like life is just flying by me...and I sit home on weekends feeling lonely...wanting to do something..but no idea what. I miss the fun person I used to be. I remember going dancing in my twenties and thirties..having fun..going out with friends for happy hour..but now I am forty-four..while that is hardly old..I just feel that my best years are behind me.
Last September, when I was hospitalized due to a bad reaction to antidepressant medication..I went to a group therapy session and they said that many depressed people are stuck in a rut. They gave me a flier on recreation centers to call..and asked each of us, what gives us joy and excitement, or what used to give us joy, passion for life and excitement..and I said, that I used to love to play badminton, table tennis, card and board games and bingo. They said I could do this at the recreation centers. and I have called all the recreation centers and they don't have any of these activities, and I have no idea on where to go to do any of these. I have looked in the paper (community/event) section or don't see any thing that has badminton, card, table tennis, bingo and board games.
With that, I continue to sit home weekend after weekend..just feeling lonely and stuck in a rut. I usually can't wait to get back to work on Monday. Thanks for listening.