I don't know who else to talk to , if I said this to my parents they would be really upset , I feel like I am an Idiot really.
I have bin a patient of deppresion for 4 years now, and now I seem to be winning my battle with deppresion but I seem to still have more problems.
I'm having a little problem with concentration since a few years now, but I think it has increased in the last 6 months. and I'm trying to find out what is the cause.... looking at the past I remember changing Doctor every 6 months or so . untill the 5th doctor who was able to help me improve myself and in few months time the deppresion seems to have disapeared, except for some bad days. but there was still other issues:
right now, I feel like I can have problems retaining new information. except if i am doing an activity such s swimming or football or olaying computer games. comparing these activities to work; I feel boared at work and my performance seems to be going down slowly over 6 months period. So my boss is not happy with me. but he's giving me a chance to get things in order.
I come to work at the right time, but I waste working hours with chatting with other employeess, going outside for smooke. and drinking tea or coffe, or surfing the internet for fun. If I try to read a book which is for certification I was asked to do, I end up feeling sleepy again.
I am worried and I wonder if some of the meds have a side effect that is slowing my concentration. it could be effexsor as I suspect but I am not sure. I'm on lithuim, lamectal, akindole, ablfly, effecsor 150, welburten , and another one I forgot its name. if any one has these symptoms and uses some of these durgs let me know pleaase, also I need some encouragement lol.
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