Hi Nash, I am sorry that there wasnt anyone in chat for you to speak to. I think perhaps the problem may be that there is a huge time difference considering where you live. It is wonderful that you remember the things you like to do and try to keep those things in mind. Listen to the music that makes you most happy...I dont know how old you are but is there a parent or friend that you can speak to regarding this? Please do seek out the help of your physician, there are many medications that can help for depression and will help greatly with making these feelings that your having (that most of us have dealt with before) go away.
I posted above an International suicide crisis hotline for you, there is always someone there to speak to all you have to do is pick up the phone.....