Things will get better soon Nash, sometimes it seems like there is no hope, but it always gets better. Please try some of the chat rooms or even keep responding in this forum. We all want to help you get better. Even though we dont know you we all know what it is like to be really deep in depression and can relate to what you are feeling.
Are there hobbies or activites that you enjoy?
I know what it is like to be really down, but things do get better. Hang in there .
Take Care and Respond soon,