Hi Chartreux, I totally can relate to physical illnesses triggering and causing depression symptoms to worsen. I too have a whole list of physical ailments ranging from severe heart problems, low blood pressure and Multiple Sclerosis and a new Autonomic Disorder which is like Parkinson's disease. I worry about my mom a lot too as she has Mitro Valve Prolape of the heart and will soon have to have 4 of her heart valves replaced. I however, am lucky I am able to take an antidepressant and stay on it long term. Which is good as I truly believe this is what keeps me level and quite frankly sane...;)
I can’t imagine what it would be like to have to deal with my disorders without my antidepressants and there is solid proof that long term illness does worsen depression and anxiety.
I understand with your allergy and asthma problems and the meds your on for that you can’t take an antidepressant...but I wonder if you doctor has tried on with you? Do they completely understand the scope of your mental state? Sometimes doctors and especially medical physicians work so hard at trying to find the physical problems they ignore or push aside the potential for mental effects. Not saying they aren’t good doctors but with so much going on it does sound as if there must be something you should be able to take to help you.
Even if the medication route isn’t going to help or work without setting off your asthma, you may want to look into some counseling that specializes in medical related illnesses. My counselor is such and it has helped me greatly deal with my diagnoses, future outcome and just basically help deal with day to day live skills. It can never hurt that is for sure.
Please know that we are always here and you don’t have to apologize for venting...its good to get these things out otherwise they become toxic inside us. I hope today is a better day for you...Take care