Posted 9/22/2006 1:10 PM (GMT -6)
Thank you so much for your encouragement. I've told you before and I'll tell you again, you're awesome.
His daughter turns twelve in November and we are going to ask her if she wants to come and live with us. She has been the mother to her little brother for so long that she needs a break. She needs to be here with us and spread her wings. She does everything for him, feeds him, helps him with all his chores and tasks because Hagatha has enabled him. He thinks he can't do anything by himself and cries. I think it will be good for him to be away from his sister and gain some confidence and independance. We would of course help him along this road since no one else will. Her two oldest, who are not my hubby's, are juvenile delinquents, don't attend school, have been in and out of juvy jail, are mean and violent to Jake and the oldest daughter is pregnant. They live in a two bedroom house and when the baby is born there will be 4 in one room and 2 in the other. Like mother, like daughter. The 4 kids have three different dads. She had her oldest when she was 16 too, and has run all over the system ever since. She is filthy, the house is filthy and the kids are filthy. We called DCFS and someone alerted her and she had a friend go over and help her clean the house. They also have a dog and 9-10 cats. I've called animal services on her and nothing seems to help. We are trying very hard to document everything she does. She even used my hubby's health insurance almost a year after she was off of it after the divorce! I have that evidence too.
I'm glad your grandkids are doing well. Every child deserves a stable home, someone who cares about them and will be there for them, no matter what.
I'm just consumed lately with wanting revenge. I want to go over there and beat her face in. I'm so full of hatred. I know it's poison. I know it's hurting me. But how do I get rid of it?
I'm hoping that a change in depression meds will do the trick. I just need a break.
If you ever need to talk, you know where I am. I'll be more than happy to listen to you.
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, orthostatic hypotension, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, lexapro, xanax, proamatine, inderal la, neurontin, torfanil pm, celebrex, aspirin, relpax, phenergan, esgic plus
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006