I am new to this site. I have a coupld problems I would like some of you to express your feelings and comments.
First, I am seeing this doctor and he has changed my meds 4 times in 2 months. I have taken
effexor,prozac,wellbutrin and paxil. I am currently on paxil. Nothing seems to work but what I have read here, the medications I have taken havent any time to work.
My depression is getting really bad. I stayed up for an hour last night and cryed and cryed for no reason. My live in girlfriend woke up to find me a mess. She comforted me like always. She is awesome and always understanding and interested in helping me and researching things for me.
Needless to say I am glad to have her.
As far as my job, I have been a prison guard for 12 years and I am 33 yo and have a 10 yo little princess. I am divorced and see my child every other weekend and whenever else I want. My x-wife have a good relationship about my daughter. I am currently out of work collecting workers comp from an injury at work. I soon have to get spinal fusion surgery and a laminectomy. Money isnt a problem but the pain is horrible, I am currently on Vicodin 10/660 4 times a day. I do think that the pain and being away from work for over 14 months is a factor of depression but the depression keeps getting worse and worse.
The doc i am seeing has also givin me zanax and kolonopin, .5mg to take on seperate occassions but they dont work at all, I mean .5, come on. I told me doc why not increase the secondary medication? He says he doesnt want to because of the addiction factor. I told him there is no such thing as addiction if your taking it to treat a problem, its when you take it for no reason when it becomes an addiction. He refuses to increase any of them. My girl friend keeps telling me to see another shrink but my blue cross blue sheild sucks and doesnt offer alot of docs in the philly area, and if they are available, they dont take new patients.
Im not sure where to turn or what do do about my condition. I would appreciate any help or comments.