I'm so glad my advice helped you. I have good moments, bad moments, good days, bad days.... It's crazy sometimes. Never know what's coming next. I am trying very hard to put myself first but sometimes it's hard to avoid the moments of pain, guilt, frustration. As much as you'd like to simply not care about
what the world around you thinks and does, it's pretty hard to completely block it out too. It's finding a balance and I'm working on it, slowly but surely.... This was one of those moments where I was questioning everything and just feeling really horrible about
myself and my life. Right now I'm having another one, not quite so bad, but I'm playing the avoidance game because I have some things I need to do but don't want to, and I never win when I play the avoidance game. But I never seem to learn either!!! It's tough. But it's a boost to know that my advice means something! So thank you for letting me know. And continue to focus on looking after yourself! When you succeed in making yourself important on your own list of priorities you will find more happiness. I know because for a couple of years, I managed to do it. The problem comes when life derails you and in the last two years life has derailed me and my family more than once. And in the process, I fell off my list of priorities. And I'm fighting to get myself back there. I will. But it will take time too. And when I'm having a low moment, it's nice to have a place to come.
It would be easier to tell people I have cancer than it is to tell them I am severely depressed.....