Posted Today 2:49 AM (GMT -6)
I live in Boulder as a matter of fact, I'm twenty one, finishing off my degree in History and Meteorology. Can't seem to get it done fast enough though hehehe
Posted Today 4:20 PM (GMT -6)
Hi Brigsby,

sorry I'm just now getting back to you. How was your day? It's quite a coincidence that you live in the same city as my brother, Bill. History and Meteorology sounds interesting and different. Where are you from originally?

I was wondering what medication you are on. I read back through your post and you see that you are still seeing a doctor and are on medication. It sometimes takes awhile for the medications to work and hard to find the right combination. I am sure you know that by now. Self help is a big part of it though, like I said in my post to you. It sounds like you took some steps toward that last night by calling your friend and a cousin, and by posting here !!! I hope you will keep it up.
Have you made plans for the evening? Even a small one could help your mood.

Oh, I want to suggest that you post on the bi-polar forum too. It seems that your post is getting overloooked here. Sorry for that. Hopefully that will change as people get home from their daily activities. But having it two places will generate more support.

Looking forward to hearing about your day.

"Hope is seldom found in the things we can see;it is the sweet fragrance of grace."



Posted Today 5:06 PM (GMT -6)
Hi Brigsby --

Welcome to HW! You've already met our wonderful Judy and I hope you will come to meet more and more of the supportive and friendly people here.

Like you, a fairly recent break-up triggered my depression -- and I do understand that, for both of us, the depression is not the *result* of the break-up -- that the break-up triggered our depressions with more force. In fact, in all the chaos of the months before the "final" break, my depression resurged and I found myself back at the doc asking for my prescription. I'm lucky, though: I know what meds work for me, and it has helped hugely. For you it sounds like it's been so much harder because you just haven't been getting the help that you so much need.

Judy asked a really important question I think -- about the significance of your taking a mood stabiliser. As she said, these are normally prescribed for bipolar. You also mentioned manias, which again says to me bipolar. Have you actually been formally diagnosed with this? How much has your psychiatrist or psychologist talked to you about what symptoms you suffer from and diagnosis of them? I'm concerned that you have been told by doctors just to "keep adjusting the medications"... Did they actually monitor this, or was it left for you to do? If the latter, then they are being incredibly irresponsible. Does there seem to be any plan or strategy behind the changes they suggest (if in fact they suggest these and don't just leave you to get on with it)?

The thing with bipolar depression is that you need anti-depressants to ward off the depression, but too high a dose or them not being taken in combination with a mood stabiliser can send you to the opposite end of the spectrum -- those manias. Equally, too high a dosage of mood stabiliser or anti-psychotic can trigger depression. Added to these problems are the facts that there is no standard dosage for these meds (depends on the person, and on the phase they are in), and that meds need to be adjusted at times to take into account different phases (depression or mania) as they are seen to emerge (rather than just using meds to react to full-blown depression or mania). In addition, of course, you need therapy to help you deal with the practical side of managing your condition. Add these things together and what you need is a really good psychiatrist who has experience of dealing with bipolar and can diagnose and treat you appropriately (and psychologist if your psychiatrist only does prescribing -- it's best to find a psychiatrist that does prescribing and therapy in mt experience and from what I've read of others being sent backwards and forwards). Of course it's just possible that you're not bipolar (though your reference to mania makes me doubt this): if this is the case, you still need a good psychiatrist to make a proper diagnosis, rule this out, and confirm what you *are* suffering from.

I suppose what I'm saying is that, if your docs are not being clear with you, if they are not explaining what they have diagnosed, if they are not talking you through your medication in a way that is easy to understand, and if they are seeming to palm you off on any of these questions, you need to find a doc who *is* going to do these things. I read many posts from people who tell about all the times they've been let down by these systems, and it sounds so disheartening. But I've also been let down in the past myself: then I found a doctor who was clued up, and, though I've moved a couple of times since then, I've never since settled for anything less. -- It's difficult: until you've experienced how much being treated by a really good doctor helps, it's hard to see how it *could* help that much. This is what I wish for you -- it changes everything!!

Well, there's loads more I'd love to ask you and talk to you about, but I'll leave my message there for now (did someone say "waaayyyy too long!!"?!? lol).

If you have been diagnosed with bipolar, or you simply want to find out more about what it entails (and I promise it's not all scarey!!), do pop over to join us on the bipolar board (also in this forum). Judy and I are both there -- and many other fabulous peeps (peeps = lovely people!). It's quieter than this board, so it may take slightly longer for people to respond, but they're always ready to do so when they're on!! :)

Anyway, I'll look out for your posts there and here, and hope to get to know more about you.

All best,

Rosie x

People are not like fish: they do not work well battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...


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Posted Today 5:08 PM (GMT -6)
TheBrigsby said...
I'm twenty one, finishing off my degree in History and Meteorology.
That is a MAJOR achievement!  Congrats to you for all the time and work involved!
Sorry things are so tough right now; but glad to see you reaching out to others and also evaluating possible new medical/medication options.
Judy gave great comments on your original post.  She's right, too, about posting on the bipolar forum - lots of bright and compassionate people who have been there / done that and are willing to share their experience.
What does one do with a History/Meteorology degree?  cool
Posted 10/18/2006 1:54 AM (GMT -6)
First of all thanks or your guys support. Yeah they diagnosed me as being bi polar and a combination of anti Depressants and mood stabilizers worked for awhile until i had a manic perod at which time they said to cut off the antidepressant... the thing is they weren't very clear on just when i should go back on it, how much all that so i've made appointments to get in there and get the story. I had a good day, but i hadn't gone to leep the night before due to some intense insomnia, so i'm feeling all out of sorts now. Regardless i think i bottomed out and now i'm on the upside. I will check out the bi polar forum, soudns liek a lot better place to get more specific information.

AS a side not what can one do with a History and MEterology degree??? Spend Four years writing essays and then getting a normal job.. hehehe so in other words nothing.
Posted 10/18/2006 3:10 AM (GMT -6)
I see you're a night owl too. Here I am again after 4 am, but will soon be heading to bed. I'm glad to see your post and to get some insight into the doctor and medicaton situation. Anti depressants often trigger manic or hypomania episodes, but most people are on a mood stabilier for that reason and are taking off an antidepresssant, or the dosage lowered unitl that is past. At least it has been that way for me. I talke 20mg of lexapro with the lamictal, klonopin, and lithium because of the prednisone I have been on for an autoimmune illness. If I start to feel the manic stuff coming on, I recduce the dosage for a few days. there is a medication that a lot of people use called Wellbutrin that works very well for the depressive part of bipolar, also lamictal has proven to be very good for depression and bipolar.

Glad you checked in. I hope you get some rest tonight. It's good to know when you've hit the bottom and are looking up again.

Be Well,

Your friend in KY,

"Hope is seldom found in the things we can see;it is the sweet fragrance of grace."



Posted 10/18/2006 10:34 AM (GMT -6)
TheBrigsby said...
what can one do with a History and MEterology degree??? Spend Four years writing essays and then getting a normal job.. hehehe so in other words nothing.
ROFL!  You, too??  Seems darned few of us actually use our education in our career ... but that piece of paper still opens all the important doors.  Just think of all the trivia questions you can answer when nobody else will have a clue, lol.  Time well spent.
It has taken my granddaughter almost 4 years to finish a 2 yr degree, and now she has decided she wants another 2 yr degree in another field.  I respect/admire your sticktoittiveness.
Glad you are feeling better ... please keep us posted.  :-)
Posted 10/18/2006 5:40 PM (GMT -6)
Hi Brigsby,
So glad things today have been better -- but, I know, swings and roundabouts! I really hope this is the start of a better time for you.
You made me laugh too on the History and Meteorology thing -- but, wow, what a great combination! -- I didn't know you could do such interesting mixes! At least your CV will always be a conversation-starter -- and that's part-way to getting a good job!! :)
Well, you've now met Judy, Warren and myself -- all come over from the bp forum to meet you after lovely Judy gave us the heads-up that you were here! I reckon that means we've claimed you for the bp board now (ahahahahahaha -- evil laughter devil ).
Keep posting!
Rosie x

People are not like fish: they do not work well battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...


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