Hi Hope. I was on antidepressant & anxiety medicaton for about
25 years before I was finally diagnosed with bipolar. I am sending you an article I read that explains why this happens and discusses the medications used in treataing bipolar 2, which is what I have. You didn't mention whether you were diagnosed with bp1 or 2, and there is a difference.
I will also post the bp2 info for you. I hope this will help you to understand "mood disorder" better. It is kind of a complicated things to understand.
I take lamictal, lexapro and klonopin, and lithium. Right now, today, I am stable. My doctor added lithium because I am taking a large dose of prednisone for a physical illness and my emotions were going haywire. I was having a lot of hypomania and depression. even with the medicaton. I really don't like the side effects of any of the medications I am on, espically the prednisone, but it is saving my life. Sometimes it takes time to decide which medications work the best for you. There are other mood stabilizers as you will see in the info I am going to post. Lamictal is one of the top rated. A rash is a side effect that can be dangerous and is the most serious to watch for. If you feel that strongly about
not being on the medicaton, I'm sure your doctor will try something else. I have to say though that any medication you go on will have some side effects, as I am sure you know.
I wish you the best in gettting this situation straighned out and you getting on the road to recovery.
"Hope is seldom found in the things we can see;it is the sweet fragrance of grace."