Hi. You're not alone. Do you have a psychologist to talk to? I've come to realize that meds don't fix the depression - we have to work very hard to change how we talk to and about ourselves. I noticed that you said that you are a failure at almost everything. I bet that's not really true. If you could start making it a habit to STOP yourself and say "but I do this well or I am a great nurse or I have a good heart" you will help to change your mind. Anyway, I'm working on this. Also, it sounds like you are not afraid to fail. I get really worked up and anxious thinking about all the ways I could fail. If you do have bi-polar, I'm certain that besides meds it is important to learn how to manage and cope with your affliction. I sure hope that you feel better soon!!
DX: chronic migraine, cervical degeneration, depression/anxiety
RX: Wellbutrin, Lexapro, Soma, Immitrex
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