hi. i was dx with cd in 2003 ( feb ) i had been sick for around 5 or 6 years prior to that though. im 33 years old i have one child. hes 13 . ok background info....
i have always been sad... not just depressed but sad and for a long time i felt hollow... like i had no soul. i was abused , physically and emotionally by my mom and sexually by my grandfather . my dad died when i was 15.
my depression comes in cycles or waves ... sometimes it lasts a few days and sometimes it lasts for months at a time .
the whole time i was pregnant with my son i was happy but as soon as i had him....the second i had him it was like someone flipped a switch in my head and my soul and i had no feelings for him..and the post partum depression lasted for 2 1/2 years. i did take care of him and i was a good mother to him i just didnt love him the way i knew i was supposed to. I had my tubes tied because of the post partum and i was afraid that if i had another child that the depression might turn into post partum psychosis
as far as me saying i was always sad, i remember being in kindergarten being sad... and as long as i have been aware of happy and sad i have always been sad .
My husband and i were having problems earlier this year and he wound up leaving and well i honestly wanted to die... i wanted the sorry excuse of my life to cease to exist. i went and talked to my dr.... after talking to a lot of people here at HW i was put on cymbalta..i felt better after 3 days and have been doing better ever since.. my husband and i are back together.
i havent been on any meds for my cd in about 2 years. so the cymbalta is the only thing i am on right now. it has helped with my hip pain i can walk all day at work and not have the bones in my hips feel like they are grinding together....... well i think i answered all of your questions... if not let me know and ill do my best to give you all the info i can