Tucker, I have the same feelings that you do. I don't really want to die. I just want to fall asleep and have it be over. Tucker, you are a good man. You have a good heart. Your life took a turn for the worse and you are living a very difficult life. My heart goes out to you. Do you have a therapist? Do you have a support group? Many local community churches (or non-religious) have support groups for people like you. CODA - Codependents Anonymous would even offer you a lot of support. You need people to care about you. What kinds of things do you enjoy? Do you like to read or play with your daughter? Whatever you like to do - do more it. Self-care is of the utmost importance. You have a right to be here. You have a right to be happy. I pray for you that you will find peace.
DX: chronic migraine, cervical degeneration, depression/anxiety
RX: Wellbutrin, Lexapro, Soma, Immitrex
"You don't find out that God is all you've got until God is all you've got."