Hi Nalsa, I don't think you are an attention seeker. You are just a hurting human being. It sounds like you are not feeling loved and valued and more importantly you don't seem to like the person in the mirror. You don't have to have tragic things happen to you to feel bad or sad. I'm not a psychologist but your punching walls and scraping your hands to feel pain is just an outward manifestation of the pain you feel inside. Are you confused about
your sexuality? You are going through a very troubling time and I suggest that you talk to a psychologist. You are young to have this insight and to have reached out to Healing Well for support. I hope that many others have experienced something similar that they can help you. It sounds like you are depressed and you need to seek treatment for it. You will feel much better than you do now and a psychologist can help you learn to cope with the things that make you angry and sad.
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RX: Wellbutrin, Lexapro, Soma, Immitrex
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