Posted 11/5/2006 4:39 AM (GMT -6)
I feel the need to really say thank you to all of you that have been supportive to me over the last few weeks.
Life has been really tough, especially lately. In a moment of pure desperation I turned to the net to find help on depression. I felt that ending my life was one of my only options left. I was truly worn out with the fight and had run out of steam. I found the forum that day and signed up after reading many of the posts. I realised for the first time that I really wasn't alone.
I don't feel in a position to offer advice while I am so screwed up mentally, so sorry If I have not offered back the same level of support you have given. One day I am sure I will.
Your advice is helping, it is so varied that I can pull bits from one and bits from another and make something out of it that works for me, or is at least helping me move forward. Writing it all down is a good one, it is making me focus on the big and the small, but most of all it is making me be honest with myself. I don't have a way out of all this at the moment, and maybe I never will but you have all helped me realise that it's ok, just get through the day or the week, whichever your struggling with.
I don't have any friends (whole differnt story!), but you have all been exceptional in helping me stay grounded and becasue of you all I am back trying to fight the fight.
Thank you just doesn't do justice to how I feel, but I just wanted to say it anyway. So THANK YOU.
Wishing you all well.