sorry I replied earlier but it didn't go through, maybe I didn't hit submit, anyway, I just wanted to let you know i know how you feel, I too went off my lexpapro 5 months ago to try to have a baby, only to hit a wall and fall apart about a month ago after the frustration of trying and no success and wondering if I would be able to get through a pregnancy and all that comes after, also my daughters(13) father hasn't spoken to her in a month, which I also worry about, then a friend of mine had a horrible accident, my husband is laid up for 2 months after a knee surgery and the weather is crappy and we are stuck in the house, and I really need to be around people. anyway it all led up to this. I am now back on the lexapro but been messing around with the dosage because wehn I first went back on I actually got more nervous so I cut it in half and then went up gradually back to the 10 5 days ago but still not feeling like myself, I don't even remember how to cook which I usually love to do. My husband is wonderful and my daughter needs a sibling even though she is already 13, I do not want her to grow up alone, I always dreamt of a big family just don't know if I can make it through the pregnancies and time is an issue as I am almost 36 and my daughte is just getting older I also know I need to get better first because everytime I think about it I start to get anxious again, I know how you feel trying to have what you want and having to fight a mental disorder at the same time, wish I could just be normal and happy. So you know, check with your doctor because everyone is different but there are meds that are safe when pregnant, I was starting to think I could never have a baby because I would never make it through, still not sure, but I am hopeful. take care of you and don't give up.