Hi Shy, I am so sorry that your going through this. I dont have depersonalization, but I do have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder which is something that a lot of people who like us who have traumatic events in their lives/childhoods deal with. I have had the dreams and the little memories that pop up out of no where when I am not even thinking of it.
As a side track here, my crazy aunt who lives in Kansas City...which is also where my ex-stepfather (the molester) lives. Found herself an apartment a block away from him. When she realized that he lived there...(this was last week), she went to his door and had it out with him and his wife. She also went and knocked on all his neighbors’ doors and told them that they had a molester living next to them. She had the police called on her...and I had to be the one to call and tell her to leave the man alone...even though in my heart and head I was glad she did it.
But it goes to show that every little thing brings it up again, no matter if it was from your own experience or from something you saw on the news that happened to some other poor little kid. That is what PTSD is all about and it doesn’t go away, it is always there in the back of your mind.
I was wondering if you had a Rape and Abuse Crisis Center where you live Shy? They are very hard to find and dont usually advertise but they would provide counseling for you since you dont have insurance right now. Especially since all you have been through, it may be worth checking into.
My thoughts are always with you...
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