Hi Leigh Ann, the letter I am writting to my ex-stepfather I am actually not going to mail to him. I plan to burn it along with a pack of pictures that my mom didnt know she still had of him and us as kids that I found a few months ago. The letter is more like trying to close a chapter of my life and lay that part to rest. I have never wrote those things down before and as I work on it, it is sort of freeing in a way.
As to writing a letter to my mom as she was the one who married him...I dont hold any hurt or anger toward her for that or for putting me in that situation. She honestly didnt know and to this day she beats herself up over it more then anything I could ever say to her. She feels that it was all her fault and it wasnt, it was HIS fault and that is the way child molesters work. They seperate people, families, and get inside your brain...its sick. My brother and I were very good at keeping secrets and were threatned almost daily not to tell...so we didnt tell, not anyone until my brother said something to his school counselor, I dont know why or what made him do it. My mom was shocked when she was told but she never once doubted what happen. She wasnt one of those women who side with their husbands...she would of hurt him if she had the chance to but she didnt see him again except in divorce court a few months later.
Through everything I could never have asked for a better mother then the one I have.