I'm new to this board, so excuse me if I ramble on...
This year, in fact the last 3 months, hasn't been wonderful. I just lost my husband of 11yrs. on monday. He somehow aquired that flesh eating virus. He had been sick for 2 1/2 weeks before it overcame him. Needless to say, the holidays are going to be tough. Especially with him passing away just days before.
We had 3 beautiful children together, ages 3, 4, and 7. They are no longer here as well. They were taken in August of this year.
So you can see why this is going to be a very difficult time for me. I also have been battling severe depression for most of my life. I'm still taking my meds, so that's a good thing, I guess.
Thank you for letting me ramble on...
We, the Depressed, in our darkest hours have
No energy to move
No reason to live
No will to survive
No hope in a cure
No reason to try.
We roam the earth as the living dead
Wanting only to extinguish
That persistant heart that beats
That ceaseless breath that enters
That pain that never relents.
Every cell of our being wants to die,
Yet we do live.