This is my first posting... I am hoping.. well to find some hope.
I have been depressed almost constantly since I was about 13 yrs old. I have tried many different anti depressants and have gone to therapy. I don't feel any happier. For a long time, I smoked a lot and ate for comfort. As a result, I gained weight which only added to the depression. I have managed to lose a good portion of it and have been exercising and eating healthier. I still smoke every day after work and I still binge on food.
Some days I feel okay, but mostly, I feel depressed and hopeless. I think about how nice it would be to end it all at least once a week. I would never do that to my family but if it weren't for them...
Almost every day, I tell myself that I will not smoke tomorrow. That I will eat healthy and exercise tomorrow. Some days, I do manage to eat healthy and exercise, but it is rare that I can stay away from ****. I think I use it because I can't bare to be sober with my mood and thoughts. The **** distracts me from everythign I'm feeling. I know that this is probably a big part of my problem, but I can't seem to stop. I feel like I'm beating my head against the wall.
I really don't want to take anti-depressants anymore. I have been off of them for about 6 months. While on them, I didn't care about anything and my problem only grew worse.
Has anyone out there ever beat their depression? I mean the kind of depression that was with them every day for years and wasn't the result of a factor of life? Do you have any advice?
Hi, I am sorry but I have had to edit your post due to it violating forum rule #1 of no discussion of illicit drug usage. Please if your going to post here in the future do read our forum rules and regulations and become familiar with them. Thank you ~ Elisha https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=46&m=106997
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 11/30/2006 4:11:21 AM (GMT-7)