Be thankful that you have friends to talk with and go out with, and do fun things. I had two best friends in town when I moved back to my hometown after my divorce. Shortly after my return to town, both friends totally cut me out of their lives, too busy with their own lives to care or waste any time on me. That really cut me to the quick. I sit at home alone, except for my two cats, and only go out if absolutely necessary. My townhouse is a disaster area, and I just can't get the energy to clean up the place. Nobody except my Dad comes over, so I'm not forced to make the effort, although he does tell me to work on a clean-up project every once in a while.
The only times I go out are when I have doctors appointments or if I need to go to the Wal-Mart. Even then, my father usually takes me, 'cuz I don't have the energy to drive myself around.
I only communicate with other people via the internet, in the HEALINGWELL forum and a vintage doll collecting board. The doll board (Liddle Kiddles), has a convention every year, and it is the one thing I have to look forward to.
I'm actually going to try to decorate for Christmas. Nobody will see it, except my parents and younger sister. I really used to love to decorate to the nines for the holiday. I have so much stuff, I could decorate my four bedroom house I had before I kicked my cheatin' husband to the curb. The first year I was in my two bedroom townhouse, I realized after I bought a live tree, that I don't have enough space to put it anywhere. This year I decided that I wasn't going to let that hold me back. I bought a 6.5 ft artificial, prelit tree, and I'm going to put it directly in the middle of my coffee table. I don't think my cats will mess with it that much in that position. Anway, I'm going to try to get myself in the spirit of things.
Lastly, I'm going to adopt another cat. My parents will be pissed at me, but I saw one today that I just can't let go. He's a three month solid black kitten, with one tiny patch of white about the size of a dime on his chest. I've got two, what's one more. Plus, there's also almost nothing better than kitty love.
Tomorrow, I also have an appointment with my pain specialist for another round of occipital nerve blocks. They didn't do any good the first time, but the doctor said it usually takes two or three treatments for them to work.
Wish me luck!!!
"The weather is here, I wish you were beautiful."
- Jimmy Buffett