Can you tell I like it too? I started reading the book(s) when I was about 14/15 years old - I read them so much they fell apart , I bought another set which I am trying to be more careful with I also have The Hobbit (which is how Bilbo Baggins found the ring in the first place) , The Silmarillion (which relates to events far earlier than LOTR) , Unfinished Tales , and Tolkien The Illustrated Encyclopedia.
I have LOTR on video , nicked off the TV , will eventually get it on DVD box set. One thing I will say - if you've only seen the movie you gotta read the book as there are soooooooo many things they couldn't fit in (we would have been crossing our legs for a lot longer than hours if they had!). So maybe a trip to the library is in order.
I have a couple of other books in the same vein ; Dragonlance Chronicles which include Dragons of Autumn Twilight , Dragons of Winter Night , and Dragons of Spring Dawning. Dragonlance Legends which include , Time of the Twins , War of the Twins , and Test of the Twins. I have yet to get Dragonlance Tales. These books are by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman (erm.... these are falling apart too ). I also like The Way of Wyrd by Brian Bates which is about a sorcerer , magical lore of plants , runes , journeys to the spirit world - it's only a short book but very moving and uplifting. there is a whole album of music that a band did as they liked the book so much so that they told the story in songs , the band is called Sabbat , the albums name is Dreamweaver. I'm not claiming you'll like the music though - as I say I'm a metal chick (going right across most genres with a few twists thrown in for good measure). Oh and I have most of Terry Pratchetts books aswell - that was all I read when my mum died , somehow it helped me through (dya know I never even got offered counselling - pretty lame eh?).
Green Day do the eyliner thing (I've got the black nail vanish thing going at the moment) - I can't stop playing Dookie and American Idiot. Dunno if the neigbours appreciate my tone deaf accompaniment but hey , they haven't complained yet I know what ya mean about the gossip cos I used to dress gothic "back then" when it wasn't trendy , basically I got so much stick for it I reverted back to "normal" clothes - but if you look at ppl today , it's the "in" thing.
Hmmmm......... so ppl think you're weird huh? What the heck will they think I am then?? They had better start inventing some new words then hadn't they cos I'd like someone to discribe me LOL
It is NOT weak to show your emotions , I think it's very brave to open up to people , to give them something of yourself . Have you tried writing your own songs/poetry - I bet you'd be good at it. Another way I used to express myself was through drawing.
"i understand i only have two specific instances that come to mind in relation to abuse, one I cannot say for sure if it did happen" I know that sometimes when a person has had something bad happen sometimes they can't cope and your mind can have a shut down mechanism where it tries to make you forget - a bit like when someone has a car crash but they can't remember it and wake up in hospital. And the other - even if it wasn't abuse , whatever happened , needs confronting as it has affected you badly. Have you spoken to a counsellor about it? (I know we have to be careful of what we post on here - graphic discriptions are a no no incase we cause upset to others - but if you want to talk more about it you can email me by clicking on the little envelope under my name).
Is there any chance your dad might talk to you about that time at the doctors? Or get hold of your medical records (I think there's a fee to pay if you wanna do this) to see if anything's been written down. Although I warn ya now sometimes they get it wrong - I remember once I was going through a particularly rough time and got taken to hospital , I was crying and doing the rocking on the bed , one of the nurses comforted me by cuddling me , then someone else handed me some diazapam tablets (I think) to calm me down which knocked me out so I had a good sleep. Well when I woke up I decided to look at the clip board at the end of my bed , they had written that they gave me the meds cos I " needed to be held down!!!" I don't know whether they HAD to write something like that down so as they could legally minister it or what , all I know is I was so stressed that I needed that sleep - but I certainly wasn't the mad axe murderer!
It's wonderful to hear you're feeling good today - it looks like you've been needing something like finding this forum for a long time.
I will be posting sporadically over the weekend - visualise a headless chicken trying to do ten impossible tasks at once