Since I was 14 I have struggled with anxiety and had been on zoloft which seemed to work really well except that it made me feel very numb and sometimes void of emotions. I was about
to take a trip to south america and then start college in the fall and really wanted to go off my medication. I slowly went off of it and was doing really well for close to 3 or 4 months before I left the country. I spent a month abroad and had the best experience of my life, I can honestly say I had never been happier. When I returned I fell into a two week long spat of severe depression and panic attacks, I started on zoloft again and have been taking it for the past few months. My anxiety has left but I still feel very depressed. I have insomnia and have almost completely lost my apetite. I have never dealt with depression before and wonder if it is only due to the culture shock of returning home (I have been home for almost 3 months now). I feel like I will never experience the same happiness I did in south america and I am afraid that it will remain the high point of my life and thus have nothing to look forward too which scares me to death. If anyone has had any similar experiences I would greately appreciate some advice.