I am 46 year old male called Tony, I am destroying my marriage & family life,
I have 12 year old daughter and 2 grown up lads moved on , I am killing my wife,
We took a lease on a public house in conwy 12 years ago and basically lost everything, we came home in 2002 got made bankrupt in march 2006 by inland revenue, we did try to pay everyone but did not manage, I have worked as steel erector since , Sorry all too the point I have not felt well for last 2 years or so.
I just cant be bothered doing anything and sleep all the time which is no good for family life, I have various pains throughout body and bad circulation , So had blood tests, chest x rays all clear , and even sleep clinic last month, 3 years ago I started taking diothepin which did not help, Then fluoxetine with no luck , I now take sertraline 100mg , and zopiclone 7.5 at night to try get sleep pattern ,also 3 athrotec75 a day,
I was never a user of tablets, and now have constant diarrhoea.
I have been off work 4 weeks now coming up to xmas no pay wife going crazy, I am driving everyone crazy I was a heavy drinker in pub when I drink now I feel better for that time, then worse next day,
I feel as I have real disease actually dieing, not just stress nothing seems to work,
I have suicidal thoughts, I feel like taking all my various useless pills but love my family too much sorry I have gone on but no one too talk too wife sick of hearing about my illnesses, I realize thousands worse off than me, thanks to anyone bothered too read this I am so fed up just want to be normal Tony