Here is some poems that I wrote awhile ago..I thought you might be able to relate.
She feels so alone but she’s not, the image laying next to her makes her tremble. She feels the pain as it heightens within her body. But years of practice have taught her to deter it from her mind.
So many nights of torture: feelings of fear and despair.
Who is going to save her? Will anyone ever be there?
Wishing for relief any way it will come. She walks alone in her dreams, the ones where her life has just begun.
She wonders who will be there or will she always have to run?
She doesn’t ask for much, just to feel safe, for the pain and fear to end, just once.
But for now she just lays there, afraid to breathe, who is going to save her, will anyone ever be there or will her life just end this way?
He knows how to hurt her, the exact words to say.
He breaks her down to tiny pieces making sure to do it each and every day.
Get away her mind screams, run and never look back. But the fear takes over as the words she’s heard seeps into her mind like a fast spreading disease.
Hiding within herself is her only way.
A tormented soul that yearns to laugh but knows it won’t happen that day.
One day she’s going to make it, even though it’s going to take all of her strength.
You can beat the disease; the antidote is within yourself, looking deep, find it and let it lead.
Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia