I have ptsd as well.
I have in recent months remembered thing I have suppressed since 5yrs......i am now 44.
I was recently hospitalized (psche) ,,,have uncovered many memories....but I am still haunted........like there is something else to face.
I can not tell you how empowered I felt to vocalize my life long supressions. Do you feel like you can start talking a little? with me, at this stage, it came pouring out. Until now.........I have never been able to remember since I was around 13 yrs old. Now I am stalled at 5 and (you know the feeling........like you are going to implode) I feel like there is something else I need to face.
all that to say - I am so there for you!
Dear God, Please Grant Me,
The Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The Courage to change the things I can, and
The Wisdom to know the difference........Just for Today.