Dear Polly, I could have written your post myself. I too can go into deep depression when something or someone goes wrong. I think that your psychological skin is burned and the slightest pain becomes unbearable. Depression is insidious that way. It wreaks havoc on our self esteem and distorts our perceptions of everything. Read my post "why are some days so bad?" I have looked at the bottle at times too (figuratively). The only thing that keeps me from doing anything is thinking of "others." I picture people coming to my funeral or I picture my dog lying next to me waiting for me to wake up. Don't do it because tomorrow is a new day and you could feel differently. I have lived this so many times. I cry myself to sleep and the next day I have a little bit of hope to go on and sometimes I even have a good day. So, hang in there. Are you seeing a psychologist for talk therapy? You WILL overcome this with help. One day at a time. ok? You are not alone. We are here for you.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen."
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